I feel like my only posts lately are venting and complaining....well here I am again....not that I WANT to feel the way I do, but lately I am feeling very overwhelmed and tired and lonely.
Hubby is in Cincinnati....he left on Monday. We were a little late to the airport so I dropped him off and drove back around to park. I came in and JUST caught him with enough time for a kiss and he was gone. That was hard, I had it all planned out in my head, a long affectionate goodbye....ah well. Gracie had spent the night at Grandma and Grandpa's as I had to be up at 4:30 in the morning to take him to the airport. So I came home, and had a sleep until my doctors appointment.
I am officially 8 weeks pregnant, due on July 18, (2 days after Gracie was due)
Hubby had a horrible trip! The plan was late leaving due to it needing to be deiced. So then he missed his connecting flight in Chicago. Then after sitting there for 5 hours, he finally got on a plane and got to Cincinnati. He then got his rental car, and proceeded to try to get to his hotel, making a wrong turn on the interstate. Well he did make it, got himself some supper (after a long wait for it) got some beer and went to his hotel room. He couldn't open his beer, no bottle openers to be found. So someone lent him a screw driver and he opened his beer and it exploded all over him, his room, his laptop..(which thankfully is ok) I felt so bad for him, even though I did have to chuckle a little.
I picked up Gracie from Grandparents and came home. Tuesday and wednesday have been crap. Literally. Gracie is sick again. This time though thankfully there has been no vomiting, but the poor girls bum is soooooooo red and sore, and she screams....Oh I have just been feeling so bad for her. I haven't been feeling too bad so yesterday I lysoled the house, cleaned everything I could get my hands on, partly to get rid of the germs, and partly because if I get sick....well at least it is in a clean house!! :) The poor kid hasn't eaten anything to speak of in two days, at least today she has got a some toast in her, and a few bits and peices. I am just so done with sickness....done...done...done.
I don't like to wish time away....God gave us this time and we will never get it back. I know this. But today I just feel (them feelings again) like going to sleep and waking up and it is monday and we are going to the airport to pick up daddy....I am not in as bad of a mood as I was when I woke up this morning, but ugggg....I suppose we all have these days, and this too shall pass.
I am disapointed too as I did have some plans this week to get together with some friends for some preChristmas joy...not gonna happen...I am not inflicting the runs on other peoples kids at this time of year.
I just hope and pray that the rest of the week goes by better, that I don't get sick, that Gracie is all better. She hasn't been since 6 this morning, so maybe she is on the mend...takes so long to get better with little ones.