When I became the mother of one child, Gracie, I remember feeling overwhelmed, exhasted, and frustrated a lot of the time. I didn't know what to expect out of naps, sleep, feeding, and when naps didn't go well I would get very mad, and annoyed.
I regret that.
Now as a mother of two, I hardly ever get annoyed with Alysha, her naps, sleeping or eating. When she is hungry she is fed, when she is tired she sleeps, and when she is awake, she is awake. What changed? All I know is that this time around I am a better adjusted, content and happy mom.
I feel blessed. I feel content. I am a mom.
With Gracie I think I was having a hard time adjusting to becoming a mom, I felt I had lost my identity. With Alysha, I am becoming something more....a real mom. And it is something that I am proud of. Something that I am content with, and something that I never, ever want to change.
I am part of a family, three people love me more than I ever imagined. Two little people look to me for guidance. I am needed.
I love kids now, love playing with them, loved being attacked by my kids, and my nephew and neice...I am loved.
Thank you God for making me a MOM!!